OK, so this is kinda hard to write. I hae found god, for the first time to be true, I have found God. I believe in Jesus and everything now, its kinda odd that it took me so long to find this. Anyway. I was shown God by my friend Sam, she is an amazing person and worthy of any respect. She is a strong person and isn't afraid of any0one (as far as I can tell) and she doesn't take unnecessary crap from anyone either. She is my hero. She is helping me get through the hardest thing I have ever faced so far in my short little life. its kinda sad for me, since I am not used to asking for help, but am used to giving help to others. But one must learn sometimes.
God decides to use that little thing called "Karma"What is happening: Kristen's father is not following his own advice. He is also deliberately being blind to our love. He said before, in a comment on my post titled "Gone" that "as thinking human beings we should not think with our emotions, but with our minds." What is he thinking with? Envy, scorn, malice, anger, Jealousy, any number of selfish things? Well what he says is true, in some cases, and sometimes it depends on which side you are on. I see both with my head and my heart (although I do not wish to see with my head at this point) and it is not an easy thing when I am so in love with her. I know that she is grounded and that she is not allowed to make contact with me in the least, my ears are not closed to what I do not want to hear. I learned from my friend Sam that I should pity him because God is the one who takes revenge, not me. God will give back to Kristen's dad ten fold what he was put on both me and Kristen, and chances are, with god, that he will do so separately, so I really must pity this man, because knowing the pain that I am going through, and th pain she is going through, I can't even imagine what is going to happen to him. All I have to say is that he should stop this foolishness before, yes, most of you have heard what Karma is, and have probably experienced it. i know that my Karma is fairly good, since I do not try to harm others and I generally try not to be selfish, on the contrary I try to be selfless.
If it wasn't for th pain that Kristen is going through I wouldn't care so much, but to see someone else in so much pain, and going through so much suffering because someone like her father is so selfish and intentionally blind it just irks me. Ya know?
But I am letting god take this out of my hands and let god teach this man a lesson. But, I do have to say, judging from this man actions towards the male gender one would think that this man is trying to force his daughter to be a lez, and if he decides to read my blog again I want him to know this, I want him to know that I am stepping back until he will allow me to come back in with out a fuss. And, if he doesn't allow that, when she turns 18 (or maybe even 17, according to the law: yes I am familiar with the law, and I know several loop holes) he can not tell her forcefully what to do anymore. I will wait for ever for her because I love her. And I would not do anything to harm her. The pain that he si putting her through is not right, nor necessary and we all know it.
These actions he is taking is out of his own selfishness and what he was done to her, making her feel guilty to even feel the least bit happy, is something called "Brain washing" and that is far from right either. Forcing your will on others is against gods teachings.
Have a nice Day. =]
P.S.- Anyone who does not follow their own advice is a hypocrite =]